utterly peeved

Please don't call me ROSLI.. thats not my name.. its either people are ignorant or they care not to investigate.. first thing, this is a man's name and not a girl's!!!.. and i dont appreciate being called this when this name does not bring a good image (oh the horror of it!! it brings goosebumps to my skin)..

My goodness.. i'm rather fed-up and upset.. people are happy that i'm graduating but i'm feeling utterly dejected and bumped about it.. i feel like a failure even before the transcripts are out.. what am i going to do with a bloody third class honour.. or even worst, what if i dont get that honour!.. then the transcript would be totally meaningless.. its just like a piece of parchment with my name and telling the world of my disappointing results.. argh.. I WANT TO DO A MASTERS!!! is that so much to ask??

On top of this, an individual irks me yesterday.. i think age makes people irrational, easily irritated and temperamental.. but i rebelled through it and i feel rejuvinated.. ahah.. at least that episode ended well.. we'll just have to wait for the next battle to begin.. i just cant control my mouth sometimes and i am very sharp and uncouth with my words.. I'm his woes and hes my irritant..

Alot of negative aura around me right now.. let twinny be gone with the wind.. and may the breeze envelop me.. ahah.. i'm starting to talk crap so i should stop..

Adios amigos!!!

JAVIER SUAREZ

boring boring day.. and to make it worst, its hot and humid too.. well, what can I say.. its Singapore..

this blog is kinda dead in my opinion.. its either due to my ignorance or blogger has already changed so much since the last time i had a blog.. i've tried a couple of times to change the layout but so far it has been a failure :(

this weather is not helping either.. it makes me more frustrated than ever.. i'm suppose to be mugging for my exams (i still have 2 more papers to go).. but i just cant bring myself to sit down and read a scientific literature novel.. not only do i detest science, the number of materials i have to revise is not helping too.. nvm, i guess its all up to my patience.. after 25 nov at 11.30pm, I'M FREE!!! :D:D:D

i have been pondering a lot lately.. "what kind of people do i find attractive?".. after conversing with many people from various backgrounds, age groups and genders, i figure that the kind of people who attracts me (not in a sexual way, just as a chatting buddy), are those who are very confident of themselves.. when someone takes pride and believes in his or her capabilities, that person presents his or herself very well.. To illustrate, I recently chat with this person name Can on msn.. Prior to this, i know nothing about him.. But when he began chatting with me, I find that he is someone intriguing to talk to.. and its because he knows who he is and aptly describe his strengths and weaknesses.. This confidence results in a charming character.. through my experiences in life, i find this quality sadly lacking in many people, especially Asians..

this brings me to ponder about those people who have great personalities but are unable to snare an attractive mate.. maybe its due to their lack of confidence to impress people with their qualities.. i dont know.. but so far, through my chatting experiences, i find that grumpy, pessimistic and timid people are a turn off to talk to.. when you are not willing to share yourself and be witty, i'm just not interested to converse with you.. i'm not sure if this attribute is also shared by others, but for me, if you are not proud of your achievements or capabilities, go take a chill pill and stop praising me.. its no point.. learn to love yourself before you can love others (i recently learned this and i think this statement is so true for inner peace)..

p/s: JAVIER SUAREZ (pronounce as ha-bi-er su-a-reth) --> this note is meant for twinny who is learning how to pronounce spanish words... :D

a fresh breath of air..

it feels refreshing to finally start blogging again.. it has been a long while.. but i hope to find the time to leave a piece of my thought somewhere in cyberspace in the future..

lets see.. here's the latest update in my life so far..

1. insyaAllah i will be graduating in a few week's time.. adios to NTU and welcome to my future!

2. i'm off to Turkey in December with my family.. can't wait for that..

3. i found someone great in my life :D:D and he makes me happy.. i hope things will work out for us..

4. everything is going fine with my life and i enjoy the wonderful time sitting at home with twinny.. we have been lazy and wasting away our days but its all worth it.. after all its not long before we are force into the working world :(

take a look at some recent pictures..

the latest raya picture.. my family with the aunties.. the year for songket..

i think he looks nice here.. but lets keep the cap on alrite :D ...